Monday, December 26, 2011

email correspondence

Here’s a back and forth set of emails with a fellow named Dennis (a pseudonym). We’ve talked on the phone a lot and he’s shared some intense memories of what we all know as the UFO abduction phenomenon. But it get’s weirder, his experiences include Bigfoot and the ever-present synchronicities.

I thought our email conversation was interesting, so I’m sharing it with the world.

On Dec 17, 2011, at 4:58 AM, Dennis wrote:
Hey Mike,
So I've been thinking about a couple things you said during our last conversation. You talked about seeing five aliens in your yard and marveled at the level of denial which took place.

I've been wondering where your process is because it seems like there has been a large shift in your thinking.

On Sat, Dec 17, 2011 at 12:30 PM, Mike C! wrote:


You ask about my process?


My process is sorta all over the map.

I say the same thing over and over and over. I have all these puzzle pieces that are interlocked on the table, and they absolutely make a picture. There are pieces missing but I can certainly infer what's in those blank spots. I'm left to conclude that I am an alien abductee. But, without knowing absolutely what’s inside those blank areas, it just feels dishonest to make that claim.

So - I go right up to the line with how I present myself. I say (rather awkwardly) that I am someone who might have, maybe, experienced some sort of contact event in my life, but it might be on some dream-like or ethereal level that is hard to explain. Maybe, sorta, kinda.

I'll periodically say to my self, SCREW IT! I should just declare what I suspect is true! But (as I said above) it just wouldn't feel honest without some direct memory.

Now, that said, I have been told by psychics (more than one) that I came to the earth plane after consciously choosing NOT to remember these experiences. For some reason, there is a purpose to this NOT knowing. As strange as that sounds, this seems to "feel" like a truism.

I think my personal level of acceptance or denial can waver on a sort of continuum, depending on how the wind blows.

How's that for a wishy-washy reply?

Mike C

On Dec 19, 2011, at 1:08 PM, Dennis wrote:

Hey Mike,

I really enjoyed your response to where's your process...I could relate very well to what you wrote. There was a time when I was exploring the "reality" of my experiences (while having very clear's that for denial.) and often felt very conflicted about their nature.

I don't think that's wishy washy at all. I think it shows that your bumping into a dynamic, complex unknown set of experiences and doing your honest best to apprise them.

I don't mean to sound as if I've "graduated" beyond these experiences to some level of proficient, fearless interaction...I simply have not. I guess I have some measure of peace that I didn't a decade or so ago. I think these experiences, and all the ancillary stressors that seem to come with the territory, take an enormous toll.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I very much enjoyed your email.

Merry Christmas,

On Mon, Dec 19, 2011 at 4:13 PM, Mike C! wrote:


I just re-read our correspondence, and I might use some of the text in a blog post. I thought the ideas and anxieties we articulated were really good.

Mike C!

Please note, I edited our text above - just a little.


Brizdaz (Darren) said...

"consciously choosing NOT to remember these experiences".

I'm with you there Mike.
It's like reincarnation,I do believe in it,but I don't think it would be wise to know about a past life,while I'm living this one.
If you were meant to remember you would.
Why try to force open a Pandora's box of memories that you're not supposed to remember for probably a good reason,and you feel that to be the case deep down,anyway?

UFO abduction is a different kettle of fish though.
Still,go with your inner knowing.
Sometimes these things are meant to be revealed slowly,and maybe sometimes not at all.
Synchronicites give me a peaceful trusting sense of guidance and I don't really need to know who or what is pulling the strings,even though it's certainly tempting to find out.But I really trust the guidance,so I'm not worried at all.
I know my best interests are at heart,no matter what happens.
Doesn't mean that I won't be lead down some frightening paths along the way,but it's all part and parcel of life's roller just have to hang on and trust that you're safe.
It's all anyone can really do anyway,I guess.

Red Pill Junkie said...

Reincarnation... I don't know if I buy the classic reincarnation scenario.

One time I came up with this idea: what if after we die all our experiences & memories are preserved, but get disseminated into the infinite sea of consciousness (well, it's a way to name it!) and when a new human being is born, maybe some of those previous experiences from past human lives get incorporated into the new personality.

Think of it as God playing the Karma wheel playlist on 'Shuffle' :P

So maybe, in that scenario, some people get experiences from non-human lives added to them.

Anyway, it's not that I adhere 100% to this theory. Like the Macbot, I try theories and hypotheses for size, but I don't marry them ;)

Getting back to your e-mail exchange with Dennis, what I feel is that while you may not have an intellectual appraise of your experiences, you're slowly developing an emotional one. You could say you're exploring them by using your intuition as guideline.

If you're more materialist-oriented, then you say you're appraising them through your right-side hemisphere; if you're more mystical-oriented, then you say you're surrendering yourself to The Will of God ;)

tinyjunco said...

or it could just be cross-state amnesia. steph

Brizdaz (Darren) said...

Re:"I don't know if I buy the classic reincarnation scenario".

I'm not selling one.
Reincarnation just feels intuitively true to me,is all I'm saying.It's better for people to focus on the present life that they are living anyway,without putting too much focus on past possible,or future lives.
I believe you should live it like it was the last one,even if it may not be,anyway.
To live like it was your last is how it is all set up function by the looks of things,so maybe that's the best way to go,if you believe that,too.
Somethings you are better off not knowing,is all I'm saying here...but pursue if you feel that you must.

Mike Clelland! said...

Leo Sprinkle has been interviewing UFO "experiencers" for over 50 years. One interesting thing he has found in his research is that people who see UFOs are MUCH more likely to answer YES to the question "Do you believe in reincarnation" than the general population.

He claims this responce is near 100%

Red Pill Junkie said...

I think what Leo actually said, is that people who claimed to have a belief in reincarnation, are 100% likely to report a positive abduction experience --once again, showing how limited our language is, since then we shouldn't probably call it 'abduction', right? maybe something like 'imposed contact' perhaps?

But getting back to Reincarnation. As I said, I don't know if I believe in it per se... but sometimes I've gotten these... glimpses, that seem to be generated from other people life experiences --whether past, present, or generated in perhaps a parallel reality, I do not know.

I have a confession to make: I have TERRIBLE memory, when it comes to my own life --I mean, Alzheimer terrible!-- but sometimes some things stick with me; like a dream I once had, which was very brief, but was extremely charged with emotion. In the dream, I get the glimpse that I die in a jungle of sorts, and I get them impression that I'm a guerrilla fighter of sorts, and that the Army soldiers capture me and my comrades, and they kill us by a firing squad.

I remember waking up from that dream sobbing like a baby. With remorse for the life I didn't have the chance to live --it felt like I was very young. It is quite likely that the dream was a mental construct borne out of my philosophical inclinations; I'm almost 40, and yet hopelessly idealist; I still have a certain amount of reverie for the figure of Che Guevara, even though I recognize in it a hopeless utopist fighting a lost cause.

Are our dreams the memories of our past lives, or our lives the dreams of our past memories?

Who the hell knows :-/