the face at the end of the bed

I just finished reading a mind-numbing blog post (linked HERE). Lucretia Heart writes about being alone in bed when she was 16 years old, and seeing something that shattered everything.

...It was such a short duration of time, but long enough that there could be no mistake about what I was seeing. Everything in my life changed in that quick few seconds of time and I haven't been the same since. If I could point to the most pivotal few seconds of my entire life - this is IT. I mean, I've seen them while awake since then, but nothing is quite like the shock of the first time an intruding reality is UNDENIABLE...

Just even bare eye contact while I was in a fully conscious state was nearly so overwhelming as to make me feel insane. I knew that I knew that - THING - that was staring at me. But it wasn't a thing. It was a being. An intelligent being that wasn't supposed to exist, but there it was!

I have never read anything so straightforward that describes the complete disintegration of the self, she writes with relentless clarity.

Thank you Lucretia for your bravery.

This same story is part of an audio interview, Lucretia shares this unbearable experience with a shaky voice. (linked HERE)

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first-person experiences from Lucretia Heart

Lucretia Heart has just posted a new series of essays at her SPIRALS END site. As always, they are detailed, thoughtful, well written and utterly fascinating.

Her experiences are profoundly strange, and at the same time she is eloquent and persuasive in a way that her stories come across as credible, at least to me.

This heartfelt blog contains a wealth of first-person experiences that should be read (in it's entirety) by anyone who is serious about trying to make sense of this mystery. I simply amazed at the depth of this on-going series of essays. Plus, she's funny too!

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The Issue of Compromised Abductees

So I know I'm not the only one who has faced this odd knowledge that I've done things apparently on behalf of the aliens to other abductees. This lends another entire layer to the question of what exactly is going on. I'm human. I've grown up here. Yet I've acted on their behalf. How many times? Would I have agreed to this sort of behavior in my normal mind state if I knew the reasons? Would I think these reasons justified my actions? I don't remember enough to say yet.

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This is an experience (linked below) that I have NEVER heard before in all my decades of scouring the abduction literature. There are details and implications in this story that leave me thunderstruck.

Writing On Roadside Diner Windows

Still, they didn't notice me until I literally went up to the big window and thumped both hands on the glass. I could see them all looking up at me just completely startled. The older teen boy's reaction was far more dramatic-- he looked utterly freaked out. I'll never forget that look I saw on his face. But in that mind state, I was all business.

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Recommended listening:

Lucretia Heart and I recorded an interview in November of 2010, it's linked HERE. There is over two-hours of conversation where she shares some of her challenging life experiences.

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Lucretia Heart chimes in!

Lucretia Heart chimes in about my recent interview on THE STENCH OF TRUTH podcast series. Read it HERE. This woman ain't shy, and I appreciate her candor and insights more than words can say. Right on for her!

Just a few posts ago, I (again) linked to her site. And again, she goes thru an interview and then adds her own editorializing. That time it was with John Mack (linked HERE).

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Extra info added August 3rd 2011:

I posted a few comments on Lucretia's website, including the caffeine induced essay below. I liked the content of this comment, and I'm sharing it here.

~L

I really like going down the speculative paths concerning the inter-dimensional ideas.

Mostly - I like collecting the overtly mysterious stories, stories like my own, with synchronicities, odd coincidences and high strangeness. I feel like we are the rats in the maze, and it's only rarely that we can get a glimpse upward at the scientist with his clipboard looking down.

My sense is that they can tweak us in ways that we can barely comprehend. Stuff can manifest in ways the mimic divine religious apparitions and ancient folklore. Or, it can present itself as something utterly absurd.

When I am confronted with these stories, I have to scratch my head and try and fit these nonsensical events into a hypothesis that involves metal space ships carrying little pilots and an agenda. Why oh why would that agenda be goading us with experiences of such weirdness and high strangeness?

Your (Lucretia Heart) story and speculation about the UFO landing aways from your house as an act of courtesy by the tall super-model blonds really helps me wrap my mind around the ultra weirdness. You propose that if they just emerged through an inter-dimensional doorway inside your house, their visits would be followed up by an onslaught of poltergeist activity. You speculate that if that door gets opened, weird stuff will enter your home, including orbs, synchronicities and all manner of high strangeness.

This makes so much sense to me, and it helps me to factor in the outlying data, the really weird stuff - the stuff I gravitate toward. The seductive stuff (at least for me).

So, if I go down this path, the visitors have their origins on some far off planet, and (sometimes) they travel on physical craft to get here, and (sometimes) they open up multi-dimensional doorways to enter our homes (sometimes) and as a by-product of their technology - all manner of weirdness follows through.

I speculate that SOME of that weirdness that slips through those open doors gets molded in a way that is relevant and meaningful to the victim. Instead of just a bunch of chaotic orbs and slamming doors, the events manifest as profound synchronicities that somehow mold themselves to match the psyche of the receiver.

Don't ask me HOW this happens, I just sense that it does.

This avenue of speculation allows me to join the ETH with the Ultra-Terrestrial Hypothesis in a way that is tidy enough for me to comprehend without giving myself an aneurism.

Hows that?
Mike C!

interview with Dr. John Mack (in a link)

There is a woman contactee and blogger, pen-named Lucretia Heart who took a long interview with John Mack and then interjected her own set of personal insights throughout the diolog. As always, Dr. Mack is fascinating, and her additional comments add to the wierd intensity of the topic.

This interview is posted HERE, on Lucretia's blog, a site set up specificaly to catalog her paranormal experiences.

This is a long post and I'm at a loss to truly know if the conclutions are accurate, but the content and insights are riveting.

She also included a few images Masha Tyelna, with overt implications about her weird trans-genic appearence. Something that both Mac Tonnies and Christopher Knowles have commented on, for obvious reasons. Even I posted about it in the first few weeks of my own blog (see HERE).

Mere mortal or alien human hybrid?

And, for an audio interview with Lucretia Heart, (one of my best I've ever done) click HERE.

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audio interview with Lucretia Heart

“A great wind upon thin glass, shattering your paradigm.”

That haunting quote from Lucretia could sum up the entire two plus hour interview.

Lucretia Heart is a pen name. She shares her abduction and UFO related experiences on a haunting blog titled At Spiral’s End. Her written work is a collection of deeply personal life events. To add to the strangeness, both she and her husband are both abductees, and their parallel experiences are profoundly bizarre. Just so y'know, two experiencers marrying each other is not uncommon.

One-click audio download HERE.

2 hours and 12 minutes long

This interview is a spiraling of topics, and here's just a taste of the topics we cover: The existential challenge of seeing a being in her bedroom while fully conscious as a 16 year old, an unexplained pregnancy, shared experiences with her future husband, contacting Budd Hopkins, the feeling of mission, the information loops among experiencers before email, a relationship with a hybrid being named Diana, Wonder Woman and the Goddess motif, bad wigs, a handsome hybrid being named Ethan, tiny handwriting and the role of blogging.

As a writer, Lucretia has been extremely prolific, there is a huge volume of her experiences posted on her blog. But somehow, we mange to avoid re-telling too much. Our conversation and it’s details is almost entirely composed of events that have never been shared on-line.

Two gaunt actors with blue eyes and defined cheekbones are referenced to describe the tall being named Ethan.

The mysterious Ethan shows up as a key figure in the conversation. There are two postings about Ethan that are hinted at in the audio, but not fully explained. One is titled Are you ready for Armageddon? and the follow up is A letter to Ethan. In my opinion, both are required reading.
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a comrade starts a new blog

There is a blogger with the pen name Lucretia Heart that I've written about and linked to on this site. She is also an experiencer with a very powerful set of memories. She'll post essays about her alien abduction experiences, but they are interspersed with other more "normal" stories. So any reader interested in her more bizarre postings is required to dig thru her site a little bit.

But, she has (finally!) started blog dedicated specifically to these decidedly strange experiences. This essential reading is now archived on a site called SPIRAL'S END.

She writes:

"I've had a lot of people interested in the freakier aspects of my full personal online journal. Given this, I've decided to start a version of that journal that concentrates solely upon the paranormal-- especially the alien abduction aspects of it... I'll be adding new entries as well as entries previously posted to my other journal."

This woman has had some frightfully profound experiences. And to make things more compelling, she is an excellent writer. When she says something, I pay very close attention.

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comments and essay from a comrade

Lucretia-Heart shared some extremely interesting insights on her blog about what is being told to individuals who claim contact. From her direct experience she clearly lays out a pattern of communication (in tidy numbered points). Click HERE to read her essay. For reasons I don't understand, one of these points felt particularly relevant to me.

4. "When these important times come, you will have a job to do (for us)."

This essay dovetails with a comment she left on the post below, about the recent scary experience in a tent.

She wrote:

"THAT'S the night I totally felt, out of the blue, like I needed to talk to you ... It's not like me, and yet I couldn't stop thinking you and I needed to be talking that night. It would have been midnight? One am? for you I think ... My bizarre need to contact you that particular night is an odd synchronicity for sure. I am not prone to up and calling people late at night ... Yet I felt compelled. Huh..!"

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my comrade in blogging

My sister blogger writes about her own experience with a BLUE ORB, it's a fascinating story and required reading. She posts under the name Lucretia's Heart, and her life has been awash in high strangeness. (like this, this and THIS!)

Lately, both of us have been writing about our weirdly vivid dreams.

Thankfully, she's been sharing more of her paranormal experiences in recent posts, and she even says that it was my prodding that's getting her to tell more. Maybe, but I didn't need to do much more than ask her, she was ready, and all I needed to do was give her a tiny nudge.

And, she's funny too.

a sister blogger (another one)

A few days ago I received a comment on a posting I wrote on St. Paddy's Day, it was from another blogger. For some reason, I was fascinated by her comments. I searched a little, found her site, read some of her work, sent her a note and soon we were emailing back and forth.

This is yet another blog where the author shares personal paranormal experiences, including UFO sightings and their heavy-handed implications. (Someday, I need to make a list of these blogs) I am still at a loss at how to label these experiences. Is she an abductee? Contactee? Experiencer?

The title of her ongoing blog is: IN A WORLD CRACKING OPEN - Endings & Beginnings.

She goes by the pen name Lucretia Heart, and her story is rich, complicated and utterly bizarre. Having been looking at this subject, long and hard, I gotta say most of the stuff in her story seems to match things I’ve heard, either in print or from people sharing these stories with me directly.

I was utterly drawn to this posting. Here’s how the story begins:

Late September 2006, at about 2 am, a strange, blond man, tall, broad shouldered, and handsome, walked right into our living room in the middle of the night. We were up and alert at the time because someone had awakened us out of a dead sleep by rapping loudly on our bedroom window. A few minutes later, while my husband, Gerick, and I were shakily trying to figure out what was going on, Big Blond Guy just opened up our front door and strode on in!

I knew him and his name was Ethan...

Bizarre things had been occurring ever since we moved into that cabin out in the Ohio woods: Grey alien visitations, poltergeist phenomena, and several close-up UFO sightings. It had been an interesting year, to say the least! But this walk-in by a tall blond dude was altogether a bigger deal, and I knew it.

Many years before, Gerick and I and several other abductees we knew of were apparently put on some sort of 'stand-by' status. We were all told the same thing: that we were prepared and ready now, so we'd mostly be left alone (except for brief check-ups) until "it was time."

Time for what? For something to start. Something big. Something that had to do with the whole world changing. . .

NOTE: This story has been featured in JAR Quarterly
(Journal of Abduction-Encounter Research)

Mike replies...
I’ll add that 2006 seems to be the year that I began to become more preoccupied with the subject. My interest had been simply the stuff of curiosity, a subject that I followed. But, from this point on (about 2006) it turned into an obsession, and heavy-handed synchronicities began to invade my life.

Here are two more postings from my sister blogger. To me, these follow up stories are an important addition to the Ethan story.

Lucretia writes, The Hippie Visitor:

(she shares this) The following I wrote before meeting a guy named "Ethan" in a 2006 experience. I don't think they're the same guy-- but I could be wrong. I'm still confused about this one...

Mike replies...
Anyone who has read SIGHT UNSEEN by Budd Hopkins will immediately be reminded of the mysterious Mr. Page. The stories are eerie in their similarities.

Lucretia writes, A Letter To "Ethan"

I'm not sure what I'm trying to do here, exactly. I suppose I'm trying to imagine that if there were a way to communicate to "Ethan" (or whatever that mysterious yet familiar guy's name was who visited us in late September of 2006) I would dearly like to do so and would. I guess this is an exercise of my wishful imagination. But IF I could write to him, and have him read my writing, this is what I would like to say to that Angel/Alien/Faerie who came that night...

Mike concludes...
I could have made this post a LOT longer. My communications with Lucretia has been a tightly woven web of links to other ongoing synchronicities, including: The Irish, women with long red hair, the number 33, tall Nordic beings, Budd Hopkins and a deep premonition about our future.

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