I’
ve been pretty darned open on this blog about my life and my history of clinical depression. It’s been a challenge and it’s had an impact on my life.
Earlier this week I spent some time at a therapist’s office, it was my second visit to her. I have been looking to find some sort of counseling as a way to better understand my re-occurring bouts of depression.
During my first visit I was perfectly honest with this woman. I asked her how open minded she was, and then I told her about my memories and odd life experiences and how they seem intertwined with UFO related events. The implication might be that I was involved in some sort of on-going alien abduction experiences.
Just a few days ago, during our second session
she asked me if I had ever considered taking anti-psychotic medication as a way to deal with my ideas about alien abduction.
Hearing that, my heart sort of sank. I explained that I
didn’t feel that was in any way necessary. On one level I guess it’s fair for her to be ignorant of the subtle (and not so subtle) details of this confusing phenomenon. On another level, it felt so bleak that she would talk to me for only an hour, and come to the conclusion that I might be suffering from a of psychotic malady that might require medication.
I’
ve spent the last five years (if not longer) trying to make sense of my experiences. The only conclusion I’
ve reached is that
something has happened. This elusive
something seems to involve UFOs,
synchronicities and a deep compulsion to know more.
Please note: I’m probably
gunna delete this post in a few days. I know there are folks who follow this blog, and this bit of personal “gushing” might be of some value.
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TEXT added Nov. 27th 2011
I deleted this post a few days after I originally posted it. I'm adding it back into the blog now, because I figure it'll be buried within all the other posts. If anyone reads it here, it's a very real (although bleak) part of my overall experience.
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