crumbly, but good...

unparalleled brilliance

I love this so much it hurts.

Mac Tonnies posted this on his blog in about 2008. Since then I've probably watched this funny little clip a thousand times. I'll probably watch it a thousand more times, and I'll revel in each and every viewing.

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audio conversation with Bret Oldham

author and experiencer, Bret Oldham

Bret is the author of the book Children Of The Greys, his own account of a lifetime of traumatic alien encounters. In this interview he shares the emotions of his own challenging interactions with these small gray beings. He describes mind control experiments, sexual interludes, healings, unexplainable scars, hybrids, an incredible multiple abduction with another witness and a fetus being taken and the bizarre paranormal connection. The book concludes with theories and insights into the possible alien agenda by some of the leading experts on UFO and alien abduction.

  one-click audio download HERE  

Here is Brett's website, Children of the Greys. Here's a way to order his book, both paper and Kindle (HERE).



I was cautius not to have Brett simply re-tell some of key experiences in his book. He has shared those durning other audo interviews, so no need for him to repeat himself n this show. If you want to hear more of these stories, this is a pretty good interview (HERE), as well as the youtube link below.

this is a good retelling of some of Brett's experiences

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Niara Isley in conversation with Richard Dolan

I want to formally thank both Richard Dolan and Niara Terela Isley for this heartfelt interview. I feel I know both of of these people well, and I absolutely trust their sincerity. I am commending them for talking so openly about the trauma and challenges that define these kinds of experiences.

The overlapping of the UFO abduction experience with hidden military programs is perhaps the most difficult aspect of this entire phenomenon.

This is an important interview.

Niara just published a book, it is on my desk and I have yet to read it. I have talked to her enough, and listened to other audio interviews, that I know there will be some dark events in her story.

Link to Niara's site HERE, and you can order her book Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light: A Journey of Spirit Retrieval and Awakening, on her CreateSpace page, linked HERE. You can order a Kindle version HERE.

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The Vesica Piscis and the thing in my eye

Charles Gilchrist on Sacred Geometry

The other night I received a message from a reader who has also had life events that certainly imply some sort of direct contact experiences. He noticed something in his own artwork, and then found it in a drawing I had done. What was revealed to me ties back to a lot of other events, and these are all linked here on this post. These divergent threads are all tangled and overlapping, and this messy jumble seems a deeper clue that it's all real, at least to me.

In October of 2009 I saw something within my own eye, I was diagnosed earlier in the summer with a slight cataract on the lens of that eye. What I saw in October is described in this two part series of posts, part ONE and part TWO. Whatever it was, it was within my eye, and only I could see it. As strange as it sounds, I immediately recognized the image was a combination of a gray alien, a seated Buddha, a scull—and me!

the initial pencil sketch, this feels very accurate

a color rendering using the pencil sketch above

Here are two drawings of what I saw. The pencil sketch was made as I lay on my living room floor squinting into the sun, and then sketching what I saw using a clip board. The color rendering is more what it looked like, as if the image was emerging (and refracting) through thick glass.

What is more curious is the shape that emerges in the way the two circles overlap. I was informed by that reader that this is a essential element within the study of sacred geometry. He linked me to a video presentation by an artist named Charles Gilchrist (a guy with "Christ" right in his name) and he nicely explains the formation of this series of shapes.

Given this, and if the image in my eye was actually a caricature of myself, then the Vesica Piscis frames my heart chakra, so right on for me!

from mandala to the shape in my eye

Here's a short excerpt from Charles Gilchrist's intro to sacred geometry:

The Circle is . . . THE ALL. This is the essence of Mandala: The Circle holds ALL.

These two overlapping circles with a common radius, create the second enclosed form of Sacred Geometry. The ancients called this archetype. The Vesica Piscis. (black shape)

ALL FORM, literally ALL the dimensional forms of this cosmos evolve from this football like shape . . . The Vesica Piscis.

The Vesica Piscis is literally the womb of the universe . . . the ever unfolding Mother of Sacred Geometry.

compare and contrast 

What is even more curious is that the Mandala is the foundation to these shapes. This leads back to another two part posting where i tell of a shared event in 2010 with my close friend Natascha. As far as I can tell, I was abducted from a tent after both of us experiences profound irrational fear. Interwoven into this already weird event is an even weirder reference to a mandala and that thing in my eye. The story of this frightening event is linked in part ONE and part TWO.

the mandala is seen as I was floating upwards

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The vesica piscis is the building block of the TREE OF LIFE pattern. 
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The Hobbit and Sword and the Stone

One more excerpt from the work-in-progress, the owl book.

Owlamoo drawn by J.R.R. Tolkien, 1928

Author J.R.R. Tolkien made this drawing of Owlamoo, he drew it to allay the fears of his eight year old son Michael, who had been having nightmares of an evil owl. This owl would perch atop high furniture and picture frames, glaring down at the boy. Tolkien said, “I tried to draw Owlamoo from his descriptions, which seemed to rob it of terror.” He created this highly stylized owl in 1928, nine years before the publication of The Hobbit in 1937. Any abduction researcher would take keen interest when a child tells of nightmares involving glaring owls, the implication being that this might be some sort of screen memory.

Owls get mentioned a few times in The Hobbit. When Bilbo Baggins was spying on the Trolls he was to "…hoot twice like a barn-owl and once like a screech-owl…" as a way to signal the Dwarves. For an author so deeply steeped in the mythological the owl is, for the most part, absent from any of Tolkien’s books.

The owl plays a bigger role in a counterpart work of English fantasy. T. H. White published The Sword and the Stone in 1938, initially as a stand-alone work but eventually as the first part of a trilogy, The Once and Future King. This first book is a fantasy re-telling of the boyhood of King Arthur under the tutelage of the wizard Merlin.

rationalism vs mystisism

White’s novel features a talking owl, Archimedes, as Merlin’s side-kick. The name Archimedes is an overt nod to the ancient Greek mathematician, physicist, engineer, inventor and astronomer. The wizard and his owl represent two separate lines of ancient wisdom traditions. Merlin as the master of esoteric magic and Archimedes as Greek Rationalism. The imagery of the wizard and his little owl is wonderful in it’s symbolism, it perfectly personifies the western cultural idea of the wise owl.

Walt Disney later adapted Sword and the Stone to an animated film and it was released on Christmas day, 1963. An apt date given that it’s the story of a boy who performs a miracle and is later crowned a king.

Gandalf reads about Merlin

Both Tolkien and White present us with a wizard with a long white beard and a tall pointed hat, and both authors use legend and fantasy to define something idealized in the English character. These two enduring works emerged right on the heels of each other, The Hobbit in 1937, The Sword and the Stone in 1938. One year later, in 1939, England would be at war with Germany. Neither work is a harbinger of doom (like the folklore of the owl), and neither is propaganda, but each seems more a glorified call to define what is best within it’s home culture.

Also, White’s The Once and Future King was the inspiration for the Broadway musical Camelot, as well as Monty Python and the Holy Grail.

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audio conversation with Trish and Rob MacGregor - The Synchronicity Highway

authors Trish and Rob

Synchronicity (or meaningful coincidence) has been at the forefront of both Trish and Rob's journalistic output for the last bunch of years. The cover the topic well, with a focus on the stories as well as the speculation of what it might mean. Their latest book, a follow up to Aliens in the Backyard, is The Synchronicity Highway, with the sub-title, Exploring Coincidence, the Paranormal and Alien Contact.

  one-click audio download HERE  

one hour long

~ The Synchronicity Highway paperback version HERE, the e-book version HERE and the audio version HERE.

~ Audio interview for Aliens in the Backyard HERE

~ Audio interview for The Seven Secrets of Synchronicity HERE

~ Recent interview with Trish and Rob on Unknown Country with Whitley Strieber HERE

During our talk, we discuss the odd events surrounding Katy Walker and how she accidentally videotaped a UFO while filming owl murals in San Francisco. There is a clip (blow) that shows the footage. A weird overlapping of owls, UFOs and synchronicity.

curious footage from 2013 

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Note: This interview was originally posted on May14th 2014

a REAL owl plays a pivotal role in last nights dream

this morning I heard the mournful hooting
of a great horned owl out my window

I had a dream last night that was interrupted, or maybe punctuated, by the call of a great horned owl. I am writing this within minutes of getting out of bed.

The dream started in a bland suburban setting, and I was standing out in the driveway of a house that I assume was mine. The other homes were spaced sort of far apart, it was summer and the lawns were green. The sun was low in the sky and everything was calm.

Then I saw there was a grizzly bear poking around on the lawn across the street! At first I didn’t feel nervous or threatened, it was an amazing sighting. Then I realized this big thing was sort of lumbering towards me, and I retreated into the garage.

I went into the house through the inside garage door, but I realized there were a bunch of doors from the garage into the house (I think as many as six), and they were all slightly open. I quickly went into one as the giant bear entered the garage. I locked it from the inside, but typical of this kind of anxiety dream the whole thing felt awkward and frustrating, I needed to force the bolt in place.

I went to each door, one by one, and locked it from the inside, and each door was progressively more flimsy and each lock was harder to latch closed. I could tell the bear was right outside each of these doors. Just like me, it was going from door to door, and each was just a little bit open as I got to it, so I could see the bear as I pulled it closed.

Eventually, the doors would just barely close, as if they were sized wrong for the frame. The locks were broken, and parts would fall off as I tried to get them to work.

The final door was nothing more than a small sheet of thin plywood, far too small for the door frame. It was barely hanging in place on deteriorating hinges. The plywood was warped and rotten, and I could see the bear over the top and sides of it, slowly coming towards me, then his big paws were reaching through the open spaces as I frantically tried to somehow get it locked.

Suddenly I was hearing the hooting cry of an owl, steady and clear. I could hear it as this bear was pulling at this thin sheet of plywood with it's claws.

It was at that point I woke up, but the hooting continued. I lay there in bed, with the pale light of dawn easing through the only window in my bedroom. I was hearing the unmistakable call of a great horned owl, and it must have been on the telephone pole right outside my window.

Let me state this nice and clearly:

A real owl woke me up 

right as a bear was about to rip down a door!

I was going to get up to see if I could get a look at it, but it stopped before I could muster the energy to climb out of bed. I lay awake for a long time, deeply impressed at the symbolism of the dream, and that a real owl would invade my dream-scape just as a bear was about to pull down the final flimsy barrier between me and it. (Bear? Barrier?)

I have lived in this cabin for over 20 years, and I’ve occasionally heard an owl, and very rarely seen one nearby. But starting at the end of March of this year, I’ve been hearing them outside my bedroom window and they’ve been waking me up, something that’s never happened in the decades I’ve called this my home. (see THIS and THIS)

And in the essay Owls, Synchronicity and the UFO abductee I come to the conclusion that the owl plays the role of an alarm clock. A real owl blatantly played that role for me!

Yesterday, I saw a mother owl with two fluffy owlets in a nest (see below) on my daily bike ride to town. And, last night was the full moon.

mother owl and owlets 

from today's small town newspaper

How to analyze the symbolism? 

Maybe the bear is the truth and the flimsy doors are the crumbling barriers between me and that truth? The owl was saying (quite literally) WAKE UP! Bear is bare, the naked truth. Bare also means to suffer a burden. Anyway, this is sure how it feels.

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Text added May 16th (the day after the posting above)

Another persons dream:

I know a guy who has had a lifetime of what sure seems to be abduction events. He also had a grizzly bear dream the same night as I did, the morning after the May full moon.

We talk together quite a lot, and we’ve had a few other shared dreams. I spoke with him last night, and he told me about his grizzly bear dream.

This guy’s dream starts in an idyllic forest where he sees a grizzly bear on the opposite side of a river, it’s just sniffing around and he feels no threat. The whole seen is beautiful and majestic.

The next thing he remembers is a small house, he walks up to the side door and knocks on it. He peers through a window into the house and sees a woman walking up to the door, and walking behind her is this massive grizzly bear.

She opens the door and the grizzly bear comes out. They guy then moves behind the corner of the house. He know if he runs or panics the bear will chase him down and kill him.

He ends up moving away, and the bear follows him, they both end up right in front of the garage. The bear has done nothing threatening, it is just lumbering along and sniffing around. But this guy is very aware of the danger. Then the bear looks up at him, and he thinks, “Oh F*ck!” It’s right at this point he wakes up.

There are so many elements that feel similar to my dream and his. The grizzly bear and the garage are the most obvious, but the feel of the dream is similar.

This guy is about to undergo hypnotic regression in an attempt to retrieve what might be buried memories, and this has been (understandably) a looming stress for him.

We both saw the bear as representing fear. Or more correctly fear of the unknown. I feel my bear (from my dream) might represent the unknown truth, or fear of the unknown truth. We were in agreement about all these facets of the grizzly bear symbolism. I sense that this lumbering fear is something deep inside, and it's following both of us.

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Aleister Crowley, aliens, owls and Jesus

the mysterious Lam, drawn in approx. 1917

Little is known of the origin of the big headed entity known as Lam. All that can be known for sure is that this image was drawn by Aleister Crowley (probably in 1917) to depict a being that was summoned during a magickal ritual titled The Amalantrah Working. This sketch later hung on a gallery wall at Crowley's Dead Souls exhibition in Greenwich Village, New York, in 1919.

the mysterious gray alien, drawn by an abductee

The similarity of Lam to the prototypical gray alien is pretty obvious, and the subject of endless speculation among UFO enthusiasts. More on this weirdness HERE.

Blogger and researcher Regan Lee pointed out that if you look above Lam's eyes (see top image) you can see the shape of the gray alien eyes in the shaded texture on the forehead. Once you notice that, its hard to notice the actual eyes at all anymore.

a horned owl seen in the reversed image?

Things get weirder, when the image is reversed, an image of an owl emerges! Granted, I'm seeing owls everywhere I look these days, but still.

tweaked with photoshop to enhance the owl image

Also, the name Crowley has OWL embedded right in it.

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I mean, that's an owl, right?

I did another posting a while back where the image of an owl, well two owls really, flank a certain somebody. Like seeing the owls in Lam's head, this also requires reversal to bring out part of the image, and it's none other than Jesus himself. This comes from the Shroud of Turin, supposedly the cloth that covered Jesus after the Crucifixion.

The Shroud of Turin, click on image for HI-Rez view

The symmetrical triangular stains on the shroud were created by fire damage when the church (Sainte Chapelle, Chambéry) burned in December 4, 1532. The shroud was held in a box on the alter and some silver fittings on the box melted and damaged a corner of the shroud. The shroud was folded when it happened, creating the stained pattern. The patches, the rounded white triangles, were sewn in place by nuns. These created the sides of the owls.

Queen of the Night

I can't help see the resemblance between The Shroud and the Burney Relief (above), a clay tablet showing a curvy female Babylonian demon (thought to be Lilith), also flanked by owls. More about this image, called The Queen of the Night, HERE.

Granted, at this point I'm seeing owls everywhere...

image sent to me by Carlos Cruz

I mean, it doesn't take much to see that car as an owl, right? And, it's painting of a UFO abduction, right? See what my life is like? 

Text added May 12th

I need to add that pretty much all the points here were either sent to me by readers thru facebook. The thing about seeing the shape of the gray alien eyes in the shaded texture of Lam's the forehead was seen by me at The Lunar-Barbecue Facebook page. The two owls flanking Lilith matching the owls on the Shroud of Turin was my observation alone.

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Kenneth Arnold and UFO history

Kenneth Arnold
1915 - 1984

This is an excerpt from a work-in-progress. This was written for my owl book project. What follows probably won't make it into the final draft, instead there will be a much shorter version.

The name Kenneth Arnold holds a special place in UFO history. The dawn of the modern UFO era can be traced back to June 24h in 1947, the day Arnold saw something very unusual while flying alone in his private plane. His wasn’t the first sighting of this kind, but it was the one that exploded onto the national stage, ushering in the flying saucer craze of that forever changed the popular conciseness.

Here’s something I find delightful,
Kenneth Arnold had a pet owl!

Arnold built a cage for his daughter Kim so she could raise an injured Great Horned Owl. Kim had been driving in a car with her sister and her husband when they saw a young owl that had fallen from it’s nest. It had an injured eye and they took the little bird to a veterinarian. Kim would put ointment on it’s eye each day for weeks until the bird recovered. As the owl grew it was getting harder and harder to deal with, the stronger it got, the more dangerous it felt any time she needed to handle it. Eventually Kim and her father donated the adult owl to the Boise zoo.

Reflecting back, Kim says the owl wasn’t really a pet. That said, she thought it was really incredible that her father would actually let her keep a wild owl. She described the cage her father built as an expression of his character, it was something truly wonderful.

  Here is an excellent audio interview with Kim Arnold  

Kenneth Arnold is credited with unwittingly coining the term flying saucer. He was mis-quoted in the press after he reported seeing nine silvery objects flying at a tremendous speed in the summer of 1947. He saw these craft from his private plane while flying in the skies above Mount Rainier in Washington state. He described what he saw to reporters, "they flew erratic, like a saucer if you skip it across the water." The iconic words Flying Saucer ended up in the headlines and from that moment on Arnold became a reluctant celebrity.

 read more below 

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The Foundation for Research on Extraterrestrial Encounters emerges as a new player

FREE is an open air university and support network for anomalous contact experiencers and researchers alike. We provide guidance tools and connectivity to those who are willing to brave controversy in order to achieve a deeper understanding of humanity’s fundamental nature. FREE was created to bridge a gap between mainstream scientific thought and credible challenges from the deep unknown.

FREE is committed to bringing together diverse voices in the subject areas of human encounters with non-human intelligence and related phenomena.
As a research and educational “think tank”, FREE is designed to support information exchanges between those who explore alleged ET contact phenomena and associated manifestations...
We are equally committed to upholding both the highest standards of scientific research, while maintaining a firm commitment to open-minded enquiry.

  The above is an excerpt from the FREE website  

FREE stands for The Foundation for Research on Extraterrestrial Encounters.

Over the last few months I've been talking to some of the folks involved in creating this new organization. It is specifically meant to be a hub for the abductee community. The focus is on both the experiencers and the researchers. Up until this point there has been no one-stop-shopping resource for this bastard child of the UFO research community.

The abduction phenomenon has been marginalized and dismissed by the conservative nuts and bolts wing of UFO researchers. This divide has left a lot of people alone and adrift, many of who are struggling with the profound challenges of direct contact. I recognize the very real need for such an organization in this splintered arena. I truly hope that it will fill the need that I see so clearly. I am wishing a heartfelt good luck to the dedicated folks at this new organization.

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I just got a note from Rey Hernandez, he is the co-founder of FREE. The formal launch date of the organization is June 1st, 2014.

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upcoming conference in England focused on ET communication

I have been asked to speak at an upcoming conference in Leeds England, and I gratefully accepted. This will be happening, on a single Saturday, at the end of June. I'll be talking about owls, synchronicity and the UFO abductee. This event puts me in the UK for crop circle season.

2nd Extraterrestrial Communication Conference

Saturday June 28th, 2014

The event will be held at the Rose Bowl at Leeds Metropolitan University

(website for the event inked HERE)

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I will be sharing the speakers line-up with:

Ellis Taylor
Lorraine Flaherty
Tony Topping
Anthony Beckett 

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the script writers of MAD MEN are reading this blog (obviously)

that pesky number 

owl imagery and death

Some imagery from the television show MAD MEN matches the theme of this blog. The episode is titled A Day's Work and was originally aired on 20 Apr. 2014. The show opens with Don Draper sleeping in and waking up at 12:34 in the afternoon (this shows up at time-count 1:11). He is looking at the first incarnation of the digital clock. I had a very similar clock radio on my bedside in the early 70's. the kind with the bold white Helvetica numerals that would "flip" down each minute.

The second image is an owl poster, or embroidered wall hanging, in Sally's room (seen at about 4:50). During this scene Sally is talking about the death of a friend's mother (owls and death as a mythic theme). Also in the frame is a troll (symbolic of an alien), some peace signs (symbolic of, well, peace), multiple butterflies (symbolic of death and re-birth) and Charlie Brown and Linus (symbolic of existential dialog).

So, what I can safely conclude is that the script writers of this show have been scouring my blog for inspiration.

Here is another curious MAD MEN post, involving my own impressions and then a follow-up confirmation, all having to do with UFOs. (linked HERE)

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