Thursday, August 19, 2010

my role here

One simple and important question, alone on a sheet of paper.

Today I had a psychic reading with Anya Briggs set up for 11:AM, the appointment was made a few days ago due to a haunted feeling discontent. Something was off, and I felt adrift. At about 9:30 in the morning I realized that I should make a list of questions, so I got a clipboard and a clean white sheet of paper and wrote the one thing that had been really bugging me: my role here.

As soon as I wrote it, the phone rang. It was a person I had met at the Laughlin UFO conference in 2009, and I'll call him Joe. When we met I felt a very real kinship for him, we are both the exact same age and he was obviously very anxious (a lot like me). Just the other day I was reviewing a small notebook I had carried and found his email address, I had forgotten that I had written it down, but over the last year and a half I had often wondered about him, so I sent an email and asked how he was doing.

On the phone he filled me in on what has been happening since we met. He shared very scary set of experiences, involving horrifying virtual reality memories that were associated with out and out abduction events. It is a swirling nightmare of gray aliens, overt military influences and some sort of very scary training.

His stories were truly unnerving, and he shared even more during this long phone call. I listened attentively, and tried to make sense of his menacing experiences. Joe has a son and daughter, and they both share some of the same memories. And he tells of meeting 13 other people in his area that have almost the exact same set of memories.

His experiences were way beyond anything that I could relate to, so all I could do was simply listen, and offer some support and solace. We talked for over an hour, and at the end of the call he thanked me.

I was a little bit shook up by the intensity of the conversation and the obvious stress in Joe's life. But I feel like I was really good during the call. Minutes later, I was starting the session with Anya, and I had only one question written down: my role here.

I didn't need a psychic to tell me the significance of writing those words in a place of very real questioning, and then the phone ringing at that exact instant.
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Added shortly after the post above:
Here is a short excerpt from RED ICE CREATIONS, it is a snippet from an audio interview with Neil Kramer. I heard it shortly after posting this essay, and I thought it was very relevant.


approx 2 minutes
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7 comments:

Red Pill Junkie said...

Frankly, I believe you already *knew* the answer to your own question; you just seem hesitant about whether you are strong or qualified enough to undertake it.

But, for what is worth, I think you're doing pretty well so far :)

Mike Clelland! said...

Reply to RPG:

During the call, we talked about how it feels like there is something hidden from both of us, and how we each felt we were supposed to play some *role* in future events.

He said that he felt like he was being trained to be a combat soldier for some conflict he didn't understand.

And I told him I felt like my *role* was to be a compassionate psychologist.

My reply was coming from my gut, and as i spoke them, they felt like they had the ring of truth.

Mike Clelland! said...
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Mike Clelland! said...

I got an email from Anya Briggs, the psychic refered to in the post above. She gave me her permission to add it to the comments here. Re-reading her words I realize why I like her so much! Below is her responce, unedited.

Anya wrote:
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Thanks, but didn't you have anything to say about in the session how I confirmed everything he told you? That he was a MILAB, etc etc and the importance of talking about the military industrial complex in all of this?

Very important addennum that you left out, I am afraid. This is not just about WOWWWWWWWWWWW THAT IS SUCH A SYNCHRONICITY, it is far more profound and activist pro-activity oriented than I think you are grokking at the moment, my friend. This is to help people and do nuts and bolts work to assist others ultimately and to awaken others to the "hidden experience" behind reality, not sit around staring at our bellybuttons marveling at the endless "coincidences"! You have moved into the big boy leagues, I am afraid, and you need to start acting like it, Mike Clelland! You are no longer culpable for just saying "isn't that a marvel? HMMM I WONDER WHAT IT ALL MEANS, I WONDER WHAT I SHOULD DO WITH IT". The Universe is sending you messages loud and clear as to what step next you should "do with it" and I highly suggest you listen this time around, my friend.

Now my guides are saying "Big things come in small packages", I don't know what this means, but is significant somehow.

(PS- I love your journey and I love your writing and I love your blog. But I feel a need to give you a spiritual whup ass moment right now.)

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And, I replied to Anya thusly:
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What - spiritual WHOOP ASS for me? (Hahaha)

I wanted to keep that essay as SHORT as possible. (small package maybe???) And I think that I say *it* without saying it (right?) I feel like it clearly sez that: "My life path shall henceforth include VERY challenging issues surrounding very creepy and dark stuff - and my role is to be compassionate and attentive - to whoever needs it." The poet in me just wouldn't let me spell that out so overtly.

also - Can I post your WHOOP-ASS comment in the comment thing?

xoxox
M!

Trish and Rob MacGregor said...

Mike - your experiences and insights are intriguing. Love that question! And that you already knew the answer. Synchros abound.

Brizdaz said...

RE:
"Universe is sending you messages loud and clear as to what step next you should "do with it" and I highly suggest you listen this time around, my friend."

and

"And I think that I say *it* without saying it (right?) I feel like it clearly sez that: "My life path shall henceforth include VERY challenging issues surrounding very creepy and dark stuff - and my role is to be compassionate and attentive - to whoever needs it."

and

"And I told him I felt like my *role* was to be a compassionate psychologist."

IT's funny because,since I started reading your blog and Stephen King's "IT" I have had so many synchros,it's not funny...or is funny...which ever way you look at IT.-)
"IT" is about confronting your fears,not just some guy in a clown suit...and I'm starting to see why "IT" is such a popular novel, psychologically.

You may find "IT" a quite rewarding read,since you do say; "My life path shall henceforth include VERY challenging issues surrounding very creepy and dark stuff"

I'm finding psychological gems on every few pages,and I think you will,too.I still have about a 1000 pages to go,but the first 200 have been worth the price just in the bizarre synchros that have come whilst reading it.
And I'd surprised if you didn't get something positive out of it too.

Brizdaz said...

"Since the turn of the year I've been keeping a journal.And when a man writes,he thinks harder...or maybe just more specifically."said Mike.

Quote from pages 618-619 of Stephen King's novel "IT".