audio conversation with Kim Carlsberg

During our conversation, Kim says, “When you are opened up, you are opened to everything." That simple statement says a lot.

This was decidedly NOT an interview, instead it was a perfectly enjoyable conversation, seemingly without any framework or direction. But, I feel like we covered more ideas more deeply than we ever could have in a standard interview format. Plus a curious synchro-weirdness sneaks into our conversation at the 1:11:11 time count (more below on that).

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1 hour and 55 minutes of audio

Kim is the author of Beyond My Wildest Dreams, with illustrations by Darryl Anka. This book details her life experiences in a diary format with the UFO abduction phenomenon.

She is also the editor of a recent published book titled The Art of Close Encounters which features illustrations and first hand experiences by UFO contactees, along with artwork that depicts their memories.

Kim has been busy doing a lot of interviews lately, I feel like she allowed herself to dig a little deeper on this podcast. I am profoundly honored that she shared a wider breadth of her experiences with me. I’ll add that I shared a lot too.

This interview seems to focus a lot on channeling, a topic that fascinates me. I know that plenty of folks will dismiss this topic with outright contempt, but I feel that it’s important. I’ll also add that there is still that little kid in me, and if everybody says to ignore channeling, I wanna look at it even more deeply.

I will occasionally make reference to late night cable TV documentaries on the abduction experience, and how these can’t truly tell a story with any depth. Well, Kim has been a part of exactly these (somewhat cheesy) documentaries. And here’s an example, and it’s interesting. The production is sort of overly sensationalized, with the moody lighting and scary music. But the actual content of what the abductees say, and how it is explained by the narrator seems pretty even keeled. The info is quite solid; if "Joe Normal" was to watch this, he would be presented with an accurate but simplistic foundation of the abduction phenomenon.

The clip below is from some point in the early 90's. It features Kim (as always) speaking her truth to the world.

Myself and Kim at the 2011 OpenMinds conference in Arizona.

But - there is a lot more going on under the surface. Perhaps the documentary format will never be able to properly depict the complexity and depth of these experiences.

Also: There is a weird synchronicity, caught during the recoding, where we both greet our pal Phil out loud and simultaneously.

television documentary from the late 1990s

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Addendum:

The one question that I regrettably did NOT ask was, what is David Hasselhoff REALLY like?

Ubber thespian Mr. Hasselhoff reading Budd Hopkins' MISSING TIME during a quiet moment on the set of Bay Watch. Photo by Kim Carlsberg.

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Synchro-grooviness:

There was a VERY odd coincidence during the recording involving both of us shouting "Phil?" at the pretty much the same moment. When we realize what happened, we both laugh. Our laughter happens at the 1:11:11 time count.

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And more tiny oddities:

See the image below, this is a screen image with yellow highlighting added by me. This was on my screen this morning, and I realized that there were two references to 1:11:11 and each was a different context, a date and a time-count. These were just a few inches apart, and the synchro-weirdness made me take note. This is a tiny thing, but it is a clue none the less.

Image from this blog, about sychronicities, with synchronicties.

Rita wrote, "I don't have time." Mac replied, "Find the time."

I just found a superior article about Mac, HERE, written by his friend Rita J. King. This is a follow up to the New York Times piece, published in the recent Atlantic. The author shares heartfelt synchronicity that touches on life and death.

She also articulates and the deep creative enthusiasm that defined my friend Mac.

In a funny way, I feel that this short article is speaking directly to me, I am hearing Mac's strong clear voice telling me (very nicely) to get off my sorry ass and produce a graphic novel.

audio conversation with Dr. Leo Sprinkle

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PLEASE NOTE:

The audio has been revised and improved. (as of Dec. 17, 2011)

Leo Sprinkle photographed in Wyoming with Mac Tonnies.

Mac wrote: The blur is almost certainly the result of paranormal forces! ;-)

I am perfectly honored to have shared two hours in recorded conversation with Dr. Leo Sprinkle. This man's biography reads like a checklist of every major event in the modern era of UFO research. He is now 80 years old and at the top of his game. And, after a half century of looking into the UFO phenomenon, he is still open minded and optimistic. I envy his child-like outlook in a realm full of deception and terrifying first hand accounts.

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2 hours and 1 minute long

During this interview Leo says: "The map ain't necessarily the territory." That short phrase sums up a lot of our conversation as well as my personal challenges around the UFO phenomenon.

Leo shares his own abduction memories (or in his case induction). And the interview culminates with Leo channeling from his guides as a way to help me better understand a recent experience of my own.

Let me also say that Leo and I look like each other. We are both tall, trim and bald. We both have unusually big eyes too. But, he talks in a calm composed way and I talk fast with frenetic mumbling.

His book SOUL SAMPLES is essential reading, and it gives you an insight into Leo's ideas and methods. Here's an essay about the book.

I also highly recommend this interview on THE PARACAST with David Biedny.

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Mac Tonnies featured in the New York Times

This upcoming Sunday, there will be an article in the New York Times magazine titled: Cyberspace When You’re Dead By ROB WALKER. It features a long section on Mac Tonnies and the impact of his passing as seen on the internet.

I received an email about this article from Mac's mother Dana, and I read it within seconds of posting a photo of Mac and Leo Srpinkle (with a funny tag-line) and that was part of the essay above. The sychronicities continue.

Leo Sprinkle photographed in Wyoming with Mac Tonnies.

Mac wrote: The blur is almost certainly the result of paranormal forces! ;-)

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Here is an excerpt from the New York Times article:

The last entry on Posthuman Blues was titled “Tritptych #15,” a set of three images with no text. The first comment to this post came from an anonymous reader, wondering why Tonnies had not updated the blog or tweeted for two days. Some similar comments followed, and then this: “Mac Tonnies passed away earlier in the week. Our condolences are with his family and friends in this time of grief.” The author of that comment was also anonymous. After a rapid back-and-forth about whether this startling news was true and some details of the circumstances, that post’s comment section transformed into a remarkable mix of tributes, grieving and commiseration. You can still read all this today, in a thread that runs to more than 250 comments.

“It was a very strange feeling,” Dana Tonnies, Mac’s mother, told me, describing how she and her husband became aware of the swirl of activity attaching to her son’s online self. “I had no control over what was being said about him, almost immediately.” Dana and Bob Tonnies were close to their only son — in fact they had coffee with him, in a regular Sunday ritual, the morning before he died — but they had little contact with his digital self. Sometimes he would show them his online writing, but he had to do so by literally putting his laptop in front of them. The Tonnies did not read blogs. In fact they did not own a computer.

In the months after their son’s death, Dana and Bob went about the difficult business of organizing his papers (letters, e-mail printouts, story drafts) and deciding which of his belongings to keep (like his thousand or so books) or to give to his friends (his leather jacket, his three watches). This painful process took awhile, and they were not really focused on his blog or Flickr account and the like. They also inherited their son’s computer and have since learned how to navigate it and the Internet. But by then, their son’s online circle had already taken action.

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Follow-up from Mike C:

Let me add that I now have Mac's leather jacket, it is a deeply treasured gift from his family.

Over the last year I have used this blog to share some deeply personal stories about my friendship with Mac, and they are collected HERE.

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More info added on 1 / 11 / 11 :

A superior article about Mac, HERE, written by his friend Rita J. King, published in the recent Atlantic. The author shares heartfelt synchronicites and the deep creative enthusiasm that defined my friend Mac.

This inspired it's own post, and a personal challenge.

owl on a cold winter's night

Last week I saw an owl on a telephone post. I was walking to my car on a cold winter night, after leaving a friends house. At the time I was in a somber emotional mood. It felt like I was in confusing point in my life. I stood directly under the owl for a minute or so, and it watched me from above but never flew off.

The next afternoon my friend (who's house I left the previous night) saw a Great Gray Owl on a post right outside her window. Earlier that day, she had received an emotional email from an old boyfriend, and when they were dating they both had lots of curious owl sightings, including owl dreams!

I'm not sure what any of this means, but I feel obligated to pay attention.

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Text added Dec. 30th:

Just found this, more collected owl weirdness (LINK).

audio conversation with Marla Frees

Two days ago I was cross country skiing alone in the Wyoming backcountry. There is a lovely trail that culminates on a very lovely mountaintop (called Windy Ridge), and I was racing against early darkness at this latitude in winter. I had my iPod and it was set on shuffle.

During the final chords of a loud punk rock song (good for skiing fast) I thought to myself:

"Hey, I should post that audio interview with Marla Frees, that was really good. Why haven't I thought of that before?"

This came in the form of a nice thought, something I've written about in previous posts. And, within seconds, the song ended and your voice came on, it was the same interview. It was a very magical moment; I didn't even know it was on the iPod. I recently updated some music, and I guess it loaded all the interview files I had stored on my computer. I was really impressed with our conversation, it was breezy and without any pretensions or nervousness.

I listened to the entire interview (taking me to the top of the mountain) and then I skied through perfect powder snow (with gravity helping) down to my car.

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One hour and 3 minutes

The conversation with Marla was recorded in April of 2010. The reason I contacted her was for me to make sense of some of my own life events, most particularly about the October of '09, and the synchronistic whirlwind that defined that month. Marla and I did a proper psychic session on Sunday October 4th of 2009 (Hey, I just noticed that's 10-4, a synchro-phrase for affirmative) and that session came at a VERY pivotal moment in my life. Please believe me when I say that Marla has VERY powerful psychic skills, and our initial meeting was astonishingly prescient.

I used about 15 minutes of edited excerpts from this audio file as part of a very ambitious podcast where I go on and on about the weird intensity of my personal experiences during October of last year. I'll add that I saw two owls on two separate nights during the editing of this deeply personal podcast, and I can't help but read something important into those curious owl sightings.

One valuable lesson learned is that one should NOT use the term "Flaky new age weirdness" when conversing with Marla, even with the overt use of air quotes!

I encourage you to visit Marla's website and her blog. She is also does interviews for Whitley Strieber's DREAMLAND.

audio conversation with Andy Colvin

The Mothman is a mythic creature that made an appearance along the Ohio River in West Virginia in 1967. Multiple witnesses saw this apparition during a flap that also included a whole slew of paranormal weirdness. It is the subject of John Keel's must-read classic, THE MOTHMAN PROPHECIES.

Andy Colvin was a boy in Charleston West Virginia during that heady time, and he claims to have had his own powerful experiences that go well beyond simple seeing a large red-eyed winged creature. And these experiences have followed him to this day.

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His obsessive role as a researcher has culminated in three books and a 36-hour documentary (that's not a typo) earning him the title The Mothman Photographer. He also has a blog.

A simple snapshot taken by Andy's sister. There is a somewhat elusive figure in the window just above Andy's left shoulder. Make of it what you will.

These are representations of The Garuda, and if you squint your eyes a little, there is a resemblance to that figure in the window above.

During the interview Andy talks about a very curious photo from 1973 (see above). We see him as a 13 year old boy, with a blurry image out the window. At one point, his three year old son saw the snapshot, pointed to the window and said, "The Garuda." (see image to the left) And, if you look at the image, it does seem to take on the form of the the Hindu Deity, albeit fuzzy and elusive. But perhaps even more strange is the profound significance that this photo holds for Andy.

Here's a video clip of Andy interviewing the late John Keel about the paranormal strangeness that surrounds the Mothman mythos.

There is a four minute clip of Andy posted at the end of this audio interview. The edited clip was lifted from EERIE RADIO (episode 60) and it's well worth listening to, it fills out some of the details shared here.

And another good interview with Andy is archived on Adam GoRightly's UNTAMED DIMENSIONS.

audio conversation with Jake Kotze

Synchromystic.

I love the term Synchromysticism, it was coined by the young enigmatic film-maker Jake Kotze. From his home in Winnipeg Manitoba, he has creating a series of delightful videos that attempt to define an elusive force that is welling up all around us.

Pop culture is easily dismissed as trite and vapid, and it can be dismissed by those searching for deep metaphysical answers. But hidden within the soup of our mundane movies and TV shows is a path to the divine.

We dig deep into psychedelics, interacting with aliens, crop-circles and transformative experiences all interwoven with synchronicities.

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1 hour / 35 minutes long.

Posted here are a few of Jake's short and mysterious videos. On one level they might seem sort of silly and clever for clever's sake, but on another level (at least for me) they resonate as something deeply profound.

Found media video as a pioneering form of communication.

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Jake’s videos on vimeo. Jake’s video’s on YouTube. Jake’s blog, The Blob. Jake’s written blog posts at the SynchHole.

TEXT added Oct. 23, 2011:

Here is a LINK to a really great interview with Jake done by the late Kent Daniel Bentkowski on his site The Kentroversy Tapes. This was recorded Oct. 22nd, 2007, four years and a day from today.

Christopher Knowles & William Henry

Two of our most impressive thinkers in conversation.

Christopher Knowles and William Henry share their insights in a half hour interview. Mr. Knowles uses his new book, THE SECRET HISTORY OF ROCK 'N' ROLL as a jumping off point toward deeper mysteries. Mr. Henry manages to frame this fascinating conversation into something perfectly transformative.

Listen HERE.

profound essay on LUMINOSITY

Dan Mitchell shares some deeply profound experiences on his blog LUMINOSITY. This is a long and heartfelt post, and I encourage you to read the entire essay.

A short excerpt:
Shortly after 10pm on Tuesday night I felt a strange urge to go outside. ... This urge ... was much stronger than at previous times. So while my kids and my wife slept ... I put on my sweater and walked out the back door. When I turned the corner, I thought for a moment that I saw a deer standing in the middle of my driveway. Deer are not that common in this area, but they do come by every now and then. Then, my vision shifted and I thought I was now looking at a pale-skinned naked kid standing in my driveway which startled me even more. When my mind was finally able to process the image, it became clear that this was one of "them". This being looked incredibly similar to the stereotypical Gray, but not as "science fiction" as they appear in popular culture...

This event lasted less than ten seconds. This being stood about 5 and 1/2 feet tall, had pasty and very smooth skin, with a slightly over-sized head ... I remember saying "whooa!" loudly and putting my hand out almost like I was saying, "don't come a step closer". For about eight seconds it was standing directly in front of me completely still like it was undecided on what to do. It's eyes were huge and reflecting the floodlights behind me. This is why when I first saw it, I thought it was a deer or large animal. The effect in its eyes was so intense that I felt myself begin to momentarily disassociate, but quickly pulled it together. This leads me to believe our natural response is to enter trance states in their presence for our own protection. This may not be something they are intentionally doing.

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Note: The small photo above was used in Dan's posting because he felt it fairly closely matched what he saw in his driveway.

audio interview with Lucretia Heart

“A great wind upon thin glass, shattering your paradigm.”

That haunting quote from Lucretia could sum up the entire two plus hour interview.

Lucretia Heart is a pen name. She shares her abduction and UFO related experiences on a haunting blog titled At Spiral’s End. Her written work is a collection of deeply personal life events. To add to the strangeness, both she and her husband are both abductees, and their parallel experiences are profoundly bizarre. Just so y'know, two experiencers marrying each other is not uncommon.

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2 hours and 12 minutes long

This interview is a spiraling of topics, and here's just a taste of the topics we cover: The existential challenge of seeing a being in her bedroom while fully conscious as a 16 year old, an unexplained pregnancy, shared experiences with her future husband, contacting Budd Hopkins, the feeling of mission, the information loops among experiencers before email, a relationship with a hybrid being named Diana, Wonder Woman and the Goddess motif, bad wigs, a handsome hybrid being named Ethan, tiny handwriting and the role of blogging.

As a writer, Lucretia has been extremely prolific, there is a huge volume of her experiences posted on her blog. But somehow, we mange to avoid re-telling too much. Our conversation and it’s details is almost entirely composed of events that have never been shared on-line.

Two gaunt actors with blue eyes and defined cheekbones are referenced to describe the tall being named Ethan.

The mysterious Ethan shows up as a key figure in the conversation. There are two postings about Ethan that are hinted at in the audio, but not fully explained. One is titled Are you ready for Armageddon? and the follow up is A letter to Ethan. In my opinion, both are required reading.
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Audio interview with Melinda Leslie

Melinda Leslie has been public with her own abduction experiences for over 20 years. For the last 18 years she has been actively researching the involvement of a clandestine group in the lives of abductees.

MILAB is an acronym for Military Abduction, and RE-ABS is an acronym for Re-Abductions. There is an important difference, and it is addressed in this audio interview.

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2 hours and 39 minutes long

This research into the covert-operations of alien abductees is re-defining both the UFO cover-up and abduction paradigms. She has uncovered an ongoing program of monitoring, harassment and re-abduction of very vulnerable people.

Her years of investigation has meant the accumulation of a lot of data and detailed experiences, including her own. The covert-operations that invade the lives of the abductees be the best evidence for both the reality and importance of UFO abduction experiences.

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More resources:

This is a long interview, but there is still a lot more important info out there, and I strongly recommend visiting the links below.

Tim Binnall’s excellent interview from 2006. Melinda share a lot of her personal experiences.

Coast to Coast with Melinda and Niara Isley.

Coast to Coast with Melinda and Whitley Strieber.

Coast to Coast with Melinda and Joe Montaldo.

I also want to direct you to an excellent report from Melinda titled: RE-ABS: Not MILABS, and subtitled; How the Covert-Ops' Reverse Engineering of Extraterrestrial Abductees Shifts the Abduction Paradigm.

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NOTE:

If anyone has difficulty downloading this podcast, please visit the PODBEAN site HERE. And if you feel it would be easier if this large file was re-published as two smaller sized files, please let me know. Thanks, Mike C!

diet soap podcast

I'm part of an interview with Doug Lain now posted on his podcasting site DIET SOAP. We spoke about synchronicities, UFOs and the more bizarre aspects of the "experiencer" phenomenon. Doug is fiction writer, and very much a poet in the way he looks at complex issues. This mindset allows him to dig a little deeper into things that sit at our periphery.

The episode is intermixed with audio clips from Budd Hopkins and John Mack, as well as Doug reading from some of his own work. It's inspiring to listen to someone who takes on the role of an artist in the podcast format.

Doug also did a really good two part interview with Budd Hopkins, and during those episodes he shares some of his own experiences. Part ONE and part TWO.

now on iTunes

The arsenal of Hidden Experience interviews (and other musings) are now available on iTunes. Over 24 hours of audio, all set up for easy downloading. Your iPod will take on a heightened aura of enigmatic intensity.

Just one click away, right HERE.

a comrade starts a new blog

There is a blogger with the pen name Lucretia Heart that I've written about and linked to on this site. She is also an experiencer with a very powerful set of memories. She'll post essays about her alien abduction experiences, but they are interspersed with other more "normal" stories. So any reader interested in her more bizarre postings is required to dig thru her site a little bit.

But, she has (finally!) started blog dedicated specifically to these decidedly strange experiences. This essential reading is now archived on a site called SPIRAL'S END.

She writes:

"I've had a lot of people interested in the freakier aspects of my full personal online journal. Given this, I've decided to start a version of that journal that concentrates solely upon the paranormal-- especially the alien abduction aspects of it... I'll be adding new entries as well as entries previously posted to my other journal."

This woman has had some frightfully profound experiences. And to make things more compelling, she is an excellent writer. When she says something, I pay very close attention.

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