David Biedny spoke words that I could have very easily said myself. He (as usual) spoke his truth with a better clarity that I ever could have.
The excerpt below is from last nights PARACAST at about the 1:45:00 time mark on the 2 hour podcast (Aug 9, 2009). David shared some stuff that I found really moving. He’s said as much before on other episodes, so don’t ask me why, but this time it really got to me.
Below is a slightly edited (for clarity) transcript from David. I added the dot-dot-dot thing (...) to show where I took out some extraneous dialogue. Italics are all mine. Let me make this clear, he was saying exactly what I’m feeling.
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David said:
When this kind of stuff has intersected with your life you - I mean - for so many years I didn’t think about this stuff - for so many years...
But it’s not an experience, it’s a whole framework. It’s really really odd stuff. Really weird.
So, the point is, when this stuff intersects with your reality at a certain point it kinda reaches an overflow point where you can’t ignore it anymore. So I guess for me, I reached a point where, y’know, I had been bottling this stuff up - suppressing it - all of it...
I’m bringing this up so that people can have some appreciation for the fact that I’m grappling with this stuff in my life. I mean, this is stuff that I don’t have answers for - I have so many questions - and I don’t have a lot of understanding for a lot of this stuff - and - It’s almost as if when Gene was saying to me “Hey, why don’t we do a show about this stuff?”
And, at first I was really hesitant, and then I thought: Maybe it’ll feel good to talk about this some of this... And I wanna talk about these things. Look, maybe at some point I’ll end up regretting all of this, there are times now when I regret it...
But - What are y’gunna do? I’m in my mid-40’s, do I wanna suppress this stuff anymore? No.I think these things have happened to me for some sort of a reason. Now, I could be wrong about that, but I sorta know I’m not. This is where things get murky and complicated...
But when you’ve interacted with the unknown in the ways I have, there seems to be some sort of purpose to it. And I don’t pretend to know what the purpose is. I don’t know. We’re talking about ongoing things, so - I don’t know - I have a lot of questions...
We have to talk about these things. Look, someone has to have the rational discourse about this stuff. Someone's gotta do it.
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Well said! Thank you, David.
Well said! Thank you, David.
